Saturday, November 27, 2004
First of all, i am so sorry i was not able to post a thing after i watched CSI.. I was super tired then. Anyway, i had this really great time last night at the first regional vocations festival thingy.. though i didn't get enough sleep, it's just fine 'coz i like joining some new organizations and becoming a part of some event.
anyway, the fun thing was i had a chance to take furtive glances at someone who i really like and the best part was walking beside that person. and also watching him eat.. yeah i know, it's super sick but i enjoyed it anyway.ΓΌ
Enough of those dumb stuff..
What really kept me thinking was what God's plan for me really is. We had a group conversation in the jamboree at around 3 am about this topic and i enjoyed listening to what my ate and her friends were sharing. i was awed by how my sister spoke-- full of passion and love for the world. Though it may not seem like it, but my ate really wants to make a huge difference in this world and she plans to do so by creating a film/ documentary in the future that will expose man's immorality and by doing so, she hopes to open the minds of the people who are kept blinded by whatsoever things around them. As for myself, I shared to the group that I had this intimate conversation with Him and I asked Him what His plan for me was. After that, all that was left in my mind was a picture/ a vision of me serving the lost souls in the prison. I really don't know whether this was His plan for me. All i know is that i want to let these lost people feel that someone is caring for them and make them discover that after every thing that they have done, whether good or bad, He is always out there waiting for their return.
It's just sad because i am not sure if i will be able to fulfill this 'calling'. Yeah, i know i'm super evil because there are other things/ plans for my future that i have already created/ formulated but i'm afraid that i will let these ambitions to overpower me and in the process, i will not be able to follow Him.
I'm constantly praying for His guidance so that i may be able to live a good life. for Him and for others.
Wackyni
shotclock at exactly 1:03 PM
